If you’ve been following along, you know my last pregnancy was with a home birth midwife — AKA private practice, long appointments, & the kind of care that felt like it saw all of me.

This was... different. & I’m still sitting with it.

& despite my best efforts to get it right, this is me at 21 weeks! Not yet clear on what my next step is but hopeful what is meant for me will find its way into my awareness.

In this quick video I dive into:
— what the appointment actually felt like & why I left with more questions than answers
— the kind of prenatal care I’ve known & why it’s making this harder
— the grief I’m still carrying from Bennett’s birth & how it’s showing up now
— feeling stuck between what I want & what feels possible
— trying to make peace with not knowing yet

I’m still praying for resolution on this one. But until then — I’m sharing the messy middle, because I know I’m not the only one in it.

Love to love you!

Xx, Emma

It’s official! Our Florida chapter has come to an end. We’re back in Massachusetts, staying with my parents until we find, buy, & move into our next home.

(with a baby due in October btw)

So! In this episode I’m sharing all of it — the grief of leaving, the complicated feelings about being back in MA, what it’s like to house hunt while pregnant & running on nesting instinct, the emotional weight of not feeling settled, & where I am with my birth plan (spoiler: I’m holding it with open hands).

This is very much the unfiltered in-between. The part nobody talks about because it’s not pretty yet.

I hope you enjoy.

I mention Brick in this episode — it's what I've been using to stay off my phone to let my dopamine reset! If you need it too, head there for 10% off.

Xx, Emma

Because we were taught that we are inherently powerless. That to gain power we must adhere to the rules placed upon us. Go to school, get a job, find a husband, have babies — & cosplay contentment.

& now, in 2026, as a mother, you can also add — raise your kids without any help, work a full time job, get in 10k steps, make homemade sourdough, avoid processed foods, drink your green juice, journal every morning, sleep 10 hours a night & do it all with a smile to the list.

But the reason I am here, the reason YOU are here is not to submit to what is being shoved down our throats. Conformity is silently killing our souls, our spirits & as mothers we neeeeeed the pure essence of our being to be ONLINE for life to feel… fulfilling. Juicy. Wholesome. Alive.

I look back on the last decade of my life & I feel an immense sense of pride.

Because I committed to learning my unique energy, understanding how my intuition speaks to me, & following my heart & my gut over anything else.

However, when I reflect on the last 2 years since becoming a mother… I see how difficult it became to trust myself.

How the outside noise & rules & influence of whats “right” & what’s “trending” became a stronger presence than my own intuitive knowing.

In this video I unpack this. I share the process — the ups & downs. The struggles & the moments my intuition felt miles away.

But most importantly, I share the comeback. The journey home. To myself & to my knowing.

How I use Astrology & Human Design to anchor back into myself & how even when I feel scared or like a crazy woman — I choose to trust myself anyways.

My hope is this video makes you feel less alone. So that you can come back home to yourself — & trust what your heart has been telling you all along… even if it makes no logical sense.

Because this human experience is far more mystical & magical than we allow it to be. & when you create space for miracles, for the magic, for the divine to move through you — that is when the life you truly desire starts to manifest from just a dream, a vision… to your physical reality.

Take what serves you leave the rest!

& if this resonated — go deeper with me! I wrote a whole guide for paid subscribers: How to live by your unique design — the step by step process of actually learning your energy, your intuition, & coming home to yourself.

Love to love you 🕊

Xx Emma

When the reality for (most) women is that alongside the beauty, the gratitude, the peace & the excitement… comes a whole wave of feelings nobody warned you about.

Like stress, anxiety, shame, guilt, fear, worry, doubt & disconnection.

In this video I am pulling back the curtain on my own experience — what it's really felt like to live in this body through pregnancy, postpartum, & everything in between.

Because unlike many of the women online, my pregnancy was not glamorous. I was not glowing & booking maternity shoots for every trimester.

I felt icky. Gross. Disgusting. My mental health was suffering because not only was I feeling extremely triggered by my growing & expanding body — but I was also deeply disappointed in myself for feeling the way I did.

Because hello!!! Am I not the woman who built an entire business on self love? Holistic wellness? Did I not create programs that helped other women heal & achieve oneness?

I felt like everything I knew, everything I had worked for, everything I had HEALED was unraveling faster than I could have ever imagined possible.

But, as much as it pained me… I now see the greater purpose.

The greater lesson. I see that I was not alone in those feelings. & that bringing a voice to this experience is something that will not only help me heal further, but also guide other women to do the same.

Alongside sharing my personal journey I am telling you the ONE thing that I am doing different this pregnancy to ensure I don’t struggle as deeply as I did last time. & I pray it helps you, even if just a little.

So sit back, relax, grab a cup of tea — or catch this in the chaos of your motherly duties, no judgment — & enjoy this very candid conversation on body image in pregnancy + postpartum.

I hope this finds you — wherever you are — feeling a little less alone.

Xx, Emma

& because words can only take us so far…

I created this 9-minute meditation to take you the rest of the way — using your own loving light to dissolve the fear, the shame, the guilt that's been sitting in your body.

Follow this link & upgrade to a paid subscription to access this guided self healing.

Dissolve & Heal — A 9 Minute Self Love Meditation

I created this 9-minute meditation to take you the rest of the way — using your own loving light to dissolve the fear, the shame, the guilt that’s been sitting in your body. Follow this link & upgrade to a paid subscription to access this guided self healing.

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I never thought I would be one of the many women who could speak on this topic, but the longer that passes since my cesarean the more I feel like maybe, just maybe, I went through what I did so that I could shine a light on this topic & help other belly birth mama’s feel less alone, more validated in their birth/postpartum experience && heal more than just their physical body.

I know some women speak highly of their c-section experience. Hell, some women even prefer it. But the truth is that for the majority of women, their cesarean comes alongside grief, disappointment, confusion & trauma both mentally + physically.

This video is meant to do a few things. Firstly, to make all c-section mama’s feel seen, heard, held & understood. But most importantly — to spread awareness on one of the most under discussed & under researched side effects of having a c-section — scar interference.

I learned about scar interference just a few months shy of my son’s first birthday. I had been deep in the throws of “healing” my postpartum depression… doing all the things.

I actually recorded an entire podcast episode on this if you want to hear more (because I really did fight my way back to health! woohoo!). You can tune in here.

But even with a new lease on life, my PPD at bay & feeling more like myself than I had since becoming a mom… there was still something off. Something I could never quite put into words.

& it wasn’t until learning about scar interference & the impacts it has on women who have had c-sections — that everything started to make sense.

In this video I unpack the entire concept of scar interference & how it plays a large role in many c-section women feeling this underlying “offness” that is hard to accurately express…. which leads to gaslighting ourselves into being “okay” & pretending like everything is fine even when we know in our bones… it isn’t.

&& from the comments & DM’s I have received on my videos talking about this, it is clear that a LOT of women are feeling the effects of scar interference & have just accepted it as their new normal.

Because for some reason after getting 7 layers sliced into, we are simply handed a baby, some Tylenol & are told to have a good day….?????!!!!!

I feel like I may need to make another video on c-sections simply because there is SO much more to it than is talked about but I digress. Back to the topic at hand! Helping YOU heal your scar interference so you can feel like you are back online again! All systems go!

The good news is, healing scar interference turned out to be a very simple process, however — it requires you to be open to processing & releasing what is buried within the scar.

The trauma, the fear, the grief, the pain.

I explain further in this episode but have also made a very simple 5 step guide + audio healing that will help you begin this process & support you through your healing journey.

It is on sale for the month of April & if you want to grab this bundle for yourself you can find it below!

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This is merely a guide to help you as you either begin or continue your c-section healing journey. Remember — YOU have the power to heal yourself.

Sometimes all it takes is someone saying “yes, your c-section scar is impacting your energy, mood, vibrancy & overall well-being” for you to start feeling better. Because giving yourself PERMISSION to honor your truth & validate your feelings is half the battle.

So let this be your sign to show yourself some love. Cesareans are not something we should be taking lightly. Not from a physical standpoint or a spiritual one.

Your birth was no less powerful, no less beautiful, magical or divine.

Cesareans have saved countless lives & given women the option to bring their baby earth side with safety & care.

But we owe it to ourselves to accept & acknowledge that the healing we (& our baby) requires is going to be far different from those who have had a vaginal birth.

More on this to come.

Love to love you!

Xx, Emma

I’ve hesitated to post this video. To start another “thing” for the fear that I won’t be able to follow through. That I will be overcome with doubt (again). That I won’t believe in myself (again).

That I’ll just prove my deepest fear to be true — that I just don’t have what it takes anymore.

The version of me who used to work 12+ hours a day in her cute little office, creating content, programs, working with clients, holding multiple different dreams, roles, responsibilities all at once…. she feels like a figment of my imagination sometimes.

I catch myself wondering how I ever did it all, when right now I can barely manage to handle full time motherhood.

But the time to push through those fears & doubts is here. The time to bet on myself & show up anyway is here. Not for you, not for anyone else… but for me.

Because I want to feel strong again, not just physically but mentally. I want to challenge myself to go deeper. To tap in & to share & express myself in the way my souls yearns for.

The last 7 years of entrepreneurship has taught me so much about myself. The most valuable thing though? Is just how much of my heart, my mind, my soul — wants to be shared with all of you.

I feel excited & grateful for this new beginning. For Substack being a safe & soft place to land & to hold all I want to (& am finally ready to) share with you.

Thank you for following along! Thank you for loving me in all seasons of life! Thank you for showing me the grace of figuring it all out as I go!

You are truly the best community of women. The best of the best.

Love to love you 🤍

Xx, Emma

P.s. The video & sound quality WILL be improving. Note to self don’t put the tripod on the bed when you aggressively talk with your hands LOL.